Friday, August 21, 2009

An Odd Night...

The guys in the singles class that we used to be a part of have Guys Night on Thursday nights. Brett used to host it. Now it is at Jared's. A month or so ago, Brett decided to start attending again to stay in touch with those guys. So on Thursdays I go to dinner with my mom.

My plan last night was to meet my mom, and Laura this week, for dinner at 6 and then go see Julie & Julia at 7:20 at the mall. I read the book a few weeks ago and I love Amy Adams so I wanted to see the movie.

But my mom ended up having to work 6th grade orientation, so no dinner. And Brett has been sick all week so he wasn't going to guy's night. But he found a game that he has been wanting on sale for $20 yesterday, so he bought it and had that to entertain him last night. So I looked online and the movie was showing at 6:55 at the theater near me, so I decided to go.

I enjoyed the movie. You know how when you watch people who are in love it makes you happy and thankful for the love in your life? (Like when we read Twilight, Kel!) It was that kind of movie. Julia and her husband seemed to be very much in love. And Julie and her husband were also loving. So it was a good experience and I am glad that I got to see it.

But I pulled out my phone to turn the ringer back on as I was leaving the theater, and I saw that I had a voice mail from Brett's mom. She said that she was trying to reach him, and could I have him call her. So I called him as I was walking to my car. He had already talked to her. She told him that his father passed away.

Brett's relationship with his father was... well, there wasn't really a relationship. It's a long, and at the same time, short story, but it is not my story to tell. But when someone like that, someone who in theory you would like to have a relationship with, but in reality that isn't the case, dies... how should you feel? It was confusing. And sad. I love my husband and I want to be what he needs all the time... but sometimes there is just no way of knowing what we need. There are not always words for your state of emotion. Or sometimes there are too many words.

I'm sure this weekend will be... I don't know. Confusing. And maybe sad. But I am thankful for my husband. Thankful that we can be together. I love him so much and I am so thankful for his love. I hope that I can show him those things today and every day.

I realize, I overused the word in the previous paragraph, but I have to say it... I'm SO THANKFUL that today is Friday. Sigh.

1 comment:

Kelly said...

Wow, Kim I'm so sorry to hear about Brett's Dad. How is he/both of you handling the news? I miss you so much right now. I feel like everything I do is wrong and that everyone hates. I could use a Kim hug today.