Now I need to see Jennifer! And if Jeff would come visit, that would be great.
I'm even wearing real shoes today. I have a pair of shoes that I wear when I want to be invisible. It's weird, I know. I used to have a long sleeve t-shirt that I always wore on days that I wanted to be invisible. It was dark and covered me completely and had sentimental value. I had to throw the shirt away years ago. I wore it out! It was a dark period in my life. But I realized a couple of weeks ago that I had been doing the same thing with a pair of shoes. They are canvas flats and very quiet. People don't hear me when I walk in them. I should have stopped wearing them when I realized what they had come to symbolize for me. But I couldn't make the change without acknowledging the need for change, and I didn't want to admit that I was lonely. What right do I have to be lonely? I just married the man of my dreams! So I didn't.
But today, I am wearing real shoes. They are flats, but they are awesome. I bought them for the honeymoon and I love them.
Okay, I'm going to try to not fall asleep at work today. It will be a challenge! I've stayed up too late every night this week so far!
1 comment:
very insightful... Call me sometime!
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