Phobia or Baby?

Why do doctor's appointments make me so nervous? I've always thought that it's just because I am so unfamiliar with all things doctor related. I had a pediatrician growing up, but I can't remember when I stopped going to him. In middle school and high school I have only one memory of going to a doctor and that was to get a shot. And it was a clinic, I think.

In 2003 I got a bad case of bronchitis. I had insurance through Lane Bryant at the time, but I had no idea how to use. My roommate ended up calling a doctor for me. I felt pathetic, but there you go. Since then I have been sick several times, but I was without insurance for about 3 years, and after that, I just stuck it out.

Just the thought of calling a doctor makes me sick. Literally. Like, I just hung up the phone after making an appointment as a new patient, and I feel like I need to throw up. Not because I am sick. Just anxious. What's that about? Am I just being a baby or is this a phobia? Trembling and nauseated... well, either way, it ain't fun!

But I have an appointment set up. I am taking one more step towards joining the grown-up world. I am 27 years old! You would think I would comfortable with all that jazz, but there are things that make me feel 5. Like car trouble and doctor's appointments.

Ick.