Sunday, August 30, 2009

Sunday Musings

Sometimes I wish that I had tons of time to sit and blog... I have so many thoughts and ideas that come into my head, and I say to myself, "I need to sit and think that out" but then I never find time to do that, so they are always only half thoughts and half ideas floating around that never seem to clarify...


I don't think that I've mentioned yet that we joined First Baptist last Sunday. I am so thankful that God brought us to this church. It seems to be bursting with opportunity to grow and learn and disciple. I am looking forward to seeing where God will lead us in this journey.

I adore the couple who leads our Sunday School class. Tyler and Lauren are their names. They have a daughter whose name I think is Eva, but it might by Ava. One of those for sure. I think. And Lauren is pregnant with their second child. They are just such a wonderful of example of a Godly couple - not perfect, but desiring to live in God's will. Something that I desire very much for Brett and I. Not that we aren't a "Godly couple". I mean, we are both believers. But we are learning, ya know? They talk about praying together and making decisions as a couple... Brett and I are still learning to exist together as an entity... marriage is so interesting. But it is a journey. It is perfectly acceptable that we don't know the best way to do things right from the start. I have to keep reminding myself of that though. I always imagine this outside pressure to be blameless, but really the pressure comes from myself and I have to learn to take things one day at a time and just be honest and communicate and let God lead us.

It's a strange thing to admit, but honesty can be a difficult thing for me. Or maybe it would be more accurate to say that communicating is difficult. I am one of those people that will just sit silently because I desire peace. But it is not wise to confuse calm for peace. Peace only exists when there is a mutual knowledge of "the state of the union". Brett CAN'T meet my needs if I am not honest about what those needs are.

Tyler mentioned a scripture today that I am sure I have read before, but today it was a truth - a bit of wisdom - that resonated very deeply in me because it is something that I have been thinking about in our marriage. As we learn to use money and spend together, we want to do so in such a way that we honor God. We want to return his blessings and be faithful stewards.

Proverbs 30:8b "give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with the food that is needful for me."

My spiritual/financial maturity is not shown in times when I have little, but in times when I have much. What do I do with the extra money that God gives me? How hard am I really trying to pay off debt so that we can live freely from that burden? How serious am I about saving wisely today to build a better tomorrow for my family?

This idea can branch out into SO many areas of life. It kind of makes my head spin.

I hope that you enjoy your Sunday afternoon. I am going to go rest with my husband and read a little Lord of the Rings. I've been thinking about reading them for a few weeks... it's been a couple of years since I did. I gave in today!

1 comment:

Marie said...

Good thoughts! Thanks for sharing. And congrats on the church decision. Praying for you!