The Opposite of Tuesday

Tuesday started out with little happy surprises. Today started out with a big disappointment. The doctor's office called me to reschedule my appointment AGAIN! This is the third time. Brett wants me to find a new doctor, but the rescheduling really couldn't be helped. The first time the appointment was cancelled because it was the day the roads were icy, so they didn't come to work. The second time, the doctor was called into an emergency surgery. Today her son had a high grade fever and she needed to take him to a doctor.

I cried when I hung up the phone. For about 15 minutes. I hate when things go wrong and there is nothing that I can do about it. But when I tell myself "Kim, there is nothing you can do about this, so worrying won't help anything" it calms me down some. God is in control and he is going to direct our life, not some pill that I take.

I wish I had started this process months ago so that when they cancelled on my three times, I would have options. It's too late now. If I called around and tried to find a new doctor, I doubt I would get an appointment earlier than next Wednesday, which is when I was rescheduled for this time. And this doctor was recommended to me by someone that I really trust, so I feel comfortable going to see her.

I'm so tired. I stayed up extra late finishing my thank you cards because I thought that I was going to sleep in a little today before my appointment. I'm glad that they called me at 7:30 this time so I could rush around and get to work by 9:00 (I can work through lunch and not have to make up any time), but I wish I hadn't been up until 2:30 in the morning. I didn't think it would take that long to write all of the thank you cards, but it did. So there you go.

I'm exhausted, which makes me extra emotional, but I am going to do my best to not make any mistakes today so no one can talk to me like I'm an idiot and cause me to go cry in the bathroom for five minutes. I guess I have to stop blogging to do that.

Once again, Hi ho.