I'm Embarrassed

I'm embarrassed because I am crying. What silly thing is Kim crying about, this time? hehe... it's really embarrassing. I just read Edward proposing to Bella. It was so beautiful. My cheeks are hurting because I can't stop smiling and my nose is running because it made me cry. Not sobbing crying, but enough to make my nose run!

A small part of me thinks that Brett is going to propose tomorrow. The same small part of me that has thought that for the last 2 Fridays. I can't help it... I'm eager. I'm not eager for the ring, though I am excited to have a tangible constant reminder that soon we will be married. And don't get me wrong, I LOVE the ring! But I am too nervous about losing the ring to be ecstatic about wearing it. But I AM eager for the proposal. To see Brett get down on one knee and tell me that I am the one he has chosen to love for the rest of his life. And I am eager to be his wife. To not have to leave him on nights like tonight, when he is coughing and sick and doesn't want to be left alone. He looked so sad when I drove away.

We watched a Star Wars movie tonight. The Empire Strikes Back. Our first date was watching a Star Wars movie. Episode 3. It was an accidental date. Brett bought the movie the day that it came out and he invited a group of people over to watch it. It was a week night so only Charlie, Jared and I were able to make it. Brett and I ended up holding hands, which we had done before, but something that night was different. That is the day that we consider the beginning of our relationship, because that is the day that everything changed. I can't believe how far we have come. In 10 days we will be celebrating our 3 year anniversary. Maybe in 11 days I will have a new piece of jewelry and an exciting blog to post, ay?