Sunday, November 30, 2008
Home Sweet Home
Saturday, November 29, 2008
We Shopped, Then I Dropped
This was the first time that Brett's mom came to one of our family gatherings. She had plans to go see her sister like she always does for the holidays, but car trouble reared it's ugly head and plans changed. But I thought it went really well. For the most part, she looked comfortable. Maybe a little bored while people were watching the game. But all in all, there were no major incidents. Thank goodness!
My grandma also came with us, and I was SO pleased! She is not well all of the time and it has been a long time since she left her house to come to a holiday event. I was so happy to see her looking so happy =-)
Thursday night I checked the ads one more time and then I had a decision to make. I am notorious for not being able to wake up in the mornings. We had a plan in place, and that plan was to begin with me leaving my house at 3:30 to go get my sister Jenna so we could be in line at 4:00 at Toys R Us. When I was done looking through the ads at 11:00 or so, I didn't really feel tired. So I had to decide between going to bed for 4 hours and risking not waking up, or just staying up. I decided to let my eyes decide. I finished watching the movie that was on while I was looking through ads (Never Been Kissed... love it!) and then I laid down with New Moon. I finally closed my eyes around 2:15, but I left the light on in hopes that I would wake up easily when my alarm went off at 3:15. IT WORKED! I left the house on time, grabbed Jenna, and we got to Toys R Us at the perfect time!
Shopping was a success for both of us. Our usual third partner, my sister Laura, had to work and was really upset about missing the fun. But Jenna and I both got a lot done. Here is my store summary, and these are all based on our experience, not every store that was open:
Best Ad: Toys R Us
Longest Line Outside Store: Target
Longest Line to Pay: Kohls
Shortest Line to Pay: Walmart (I know,it's a miracle what they can do when they have cashiers)
Most Knowledgeable Staff: Toys R Us
Biggest Let Down: NONE! We actually found everything that we came for!
Most Helpful Employee: Tie: The woman stocking tables at Barnes and Noble and the boy who helped me find the ball pit at Toys R Us.
Biggest Find: Medical Terminology flip cards (for my sister in nursing school) at Barnes and Noble
Runner up - Buy 1 get 1 free kids digital camera at Walgreens
Everything is still in bags. I am not going to wrap presents until I am able to make some space in my room. But I am very thankful that I got so much done. I finished shopping for all 10 children who were on my list and I got halfway through with the family member whose name I drew. I have started Brett and his mom and I got a present for my grandma. I have one friend to shop for, but for the most part I am not buying friend gifts this year. We are all on tight budgets! (Well, I say that, but I did see a really cute gift at Ross yesterday that I thought I might snag for a couple of girlfriends. I didn't, but I haven't stopped thinking about it, so I might go back and get a couple).
I laid down at 2:00 p.m. yesterday. Brett called at 7:15 p.m. We talked for about 10 minutes and then I went back to sleep. I saw the clock at 10:00 p.m., 5:30 a.m. and 7:00 a.m. I got up at 7:15 so I would have time to check my email and blog before Weight Watchers. (Brett is making me go). But I think I could've kept sleeping.
I'm SO thankful today is Saturday!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Confession
What A Day!
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.26.08
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
My Snob is Showing
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.25.08
So Cute!
So Excited! Again! hehe
Monday, November 24, 2008
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.24.08
Saturday, November 22, 2008
SO MUCH FUN!
Twilight - 1989?
I knew that the storyline would be abbreviated and I had read that there were some new scenes. Okay, I can live with that. And all of the abbreviations made sense in the movie... it didn't make it seemed rushed, BUT... hmm.... I guess I felt like it just didn't flow. It felt choppy. Like flashes of a story instead of a story. Cliff notes, if you will. The thing that bothered me though was that it wasn't just the story that was abbreviated, the characters felt shortened as well. I LOVE the Cullen family. I have made no secret of that on this blog. While I was watching the movie, I felt like if I hadn't read the books, I wouldn't care about the family by the end of the flick. You also don't get a sense in the movie of just how cool a chick Bella is, and that's a shame. She is one groovy lady. Bella would never let Charlie eat in a diner like that! She can hold her own in the kitchen!
Luckily, some of that is just my attachment to the books though. Brett didn't think it was overly cheesy and he liked all of the characters.
So for tonight, I will say I didn't hate it. HOWEVER:
- Umm... did anyone else have a problem with Billy? First of all that guy looked way too young, he shouldn't have been driving the truck, and where was the nobility that this chief was supposed to exude?
- Seriously? Why was Jasper's gift not even mentioned? I don't get it.
- Alice looked stupid drawing the picture. I never say that word. I think it's horribly mean. But drawing in a trance? Yeah. That's not how it works, and it upped the cheese factor by like, a whole box of Velveeta.
- There was FAR too little of the charming, light-hearted Edward that we all know and love. Too serious, too often = melodrama!
It's late. I'm sure I'll have more to say later. Lucky you! I will try to be more positive though.
Friday, November 21, 2008
An Article
Hi, everyone. As Margarita said, most people who know me know that I have struggled with anorexia and many, many years of severe bulimia. These are the eating disorders we all talk about, but there are so many among us who struggle with binge eating, or with the less discussed “disordered eating.” Sometimes the signs are obvious, but how many women suffer from eating disorders in isolation for years because they manage to maintain a weight within a “healthy” range, or are able to laugh off bingeing in its clinical definition as just “loving food too much”? Of course, any unhealthy relationship with food isn’t about loving food, it’s about a preoccupation with food that can become an obsession. We think about it all day, dream about it at night, plan out our next meal before we’ve started to digest the one we just ate. When I was severely restricting my intake, I’d wander around the aisles of a supermarket, staring at the displays of food, and get lost in them for hours. When I was actively bingeing and purging, I’d sit in class plotting what I was going to buy from each of the different markets on my way home. (I’d split up my purchases among the different delis because I was embarrassed to be buying enough baked goods to feed 5,000 all from one place.)
More than 6 in 10 women are disordered eaters. Are you at risk?
And to this day, I would be lying if I said that in moments of high stress, it doesn’t occur to me to order in enough takeout for a small army and go to town. I’m not sure that a preoccupation with food will evercompletely leave my consciousness. But I can tell you that I no longer live in fear of food (Is it too much? Not enough?) the way I used to. And I can also tell you that I’m able to have a real, loving and truly intimate relationship with someone other than food. The truth is, I believe it’s almost impossible to properly love and be loved, to be fully present and honest with someone else, when you’re hiding food wrappers, sneaking off to the bathroom to throw up or enduring the agonizing results of the box of laxatives you swallowed earlier. (When is a diet gimmick really disordered eating?)What I know for sure is that I couldn’t have rebuilt my relationship with food, and my body, and couldn’t have recovered to the extent that I have, without help. And I know the resistance to seeking help all too well: “It’s just food, I should be able to figure it out!” “I’m embarrassed, I’m so weird about food; people will think I’m a freak.” “I’m fine, I just have a little willpower issue.”
Listen—it’s not about any of that.
Eventually I came to terms with the fact that the way I ate (or didn’t) was a behavior I’d developed, a pattern, a habit, like the way I brush my teeth. Only food’s effect on my body—an effect I don’t think is dissimilar to drugs—would make this habit a difficult one to break. (Too much food, or not enough, can give us a high, where we feel insulated from our feelings. And it’s that factor that pulls us back into self-destruction time and time again.) By the time I gave in to the concept of getting better, I was very sick and pretty desperate—and I was prepared to do anything. I sought help through therapy and outpatient rehab. And I also went somewhere most people wouldn’t expect to see me, a model: Overeaters Anonymous (OA). That OA is only for the morbidly obese or overeaters is a misconception. There were people of all ages and sizes in those meetings, men and women, teenagers, high-powered lawyers, glamorous fashionistas, stay-at-home moms. It became clear to me that those of us who have issues with food run the gamut of society. And it wasn’t until I started going to these (free) meetings that I really realized our real relationships with food actually have nothing to do with what we look like or how successful we are.
Have you heard about the scary new eating disorder: chewing and spitting.
I know that I needed all three support systems (specialized therapy, outpatient rehab and OA) to get me where I am today, but it was the support of my peers in those 12-step meetings that really changed my views and became the turning point where I no longer wanted to allow food to make me feel so secretly unhappy and isolated. And if I have learned anything over my decade-plus of self-inflicted food/body misery, it is that it doesn’t just go away. It isn’t just a case of “doing better tomorrow,” or that extra hour in the gym. I know it can be so terrifying to admit you need help, but for me, I reached the point where the only thing more terrifying was living with food abuse for the rest of my life, or, worse, not living the rest of my life. I knew I’d never allow another person to treat me the way I was treating myself—and no longer, I decided, would Jessica Clark treat me that way either.
Have any of you battled an eating disorder? If you’ve sought help—and I can’t tell you how deeply I hope that you have—what worked for you?
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Already?!
Oh Come All Ye Fanatical
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.19.08
Channeling Cho
Ron Weasley: One person couldn't feel all that, they'd explode!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.18.08
mmm... Sweet Recovery
Monday, November 17, 2008
Ashley Update
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.17.08
UPDATE - GREAT NEWS!!!
Relief
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I Confess... I'm In Love
I feel disloyal, but I can't deny it. I love the Twilight series. The last time that I enjoyed reading a book this much was Harry Potter. I love the HP books. I will always love the HP books. Nothing will ever take their place in my heart. But I am enjoying Twilight so much!
I finished Breaking Dawn Tuesday night, I think... my days this week kind of all blurred into one another. (Yes, I know... I was supposed to be banned from reading them. I got nothin'...) I have enjoyed all 4 books very much, but the reason that I was most excited to finish Breaking Dawn was so that I could go back and re-read Twilight. I know now that there was a lot of information in the first book that is very important in the others, but when I read it the first time, I didn't have the characters identified in my mind, so it didn't register like it should have. I wanted to re-read it to get the back stories straight on Carlisle and Esme and the other Cullens/Hales.
But goodness! I am totally serious... I giggle like a school girl when I read Twilight! Bella and Edward... there is something so special about them. Anyone who is in love surely appreciates watching two people fall in love. It is so sweet. And Meyer's writing, well... I can't help it. I giggle. I love Bella. She is vulnerable and strong at the same time. And most of all, Bella is good. She loves people in a very selfless way. And Edward... Hello! Bella said it right... Edward is dazzling.
So that is really all I have time to say. I love Twilight. Every book is special and I am looking forward to getting to know them better, but the first one is my fav, for sure! The best thing about New Moon is Jacob Black. Jacob is the best friend that every girl wants to have. Eclipse was fun because of the family. Getting to know them better. Breaking Dawn was maybe a tiny tiny bit disappointing. Not that I WANTED things to end badly... I didn't want any main character to get hurt. But the fact that things wrapped up so nicely... well, JK Rowling always explained that writing the death of a character was heart breaking, but it made the stories more legitimate. I mean, how am I supposed to be terrified of the Volturi, like Meyer I think intends me to be, if they seem to be no match for the Cullens?
Again, I am happy that no one got hurt... ESPECIALLY Alice. We all know I heart Alice. But I'm just saying...
Okay, gotta run!
Friday, November 14, 2008
For My Fellow Harry Potter Fans!
Thursday Night
The sample book is as done as it is going to be. I only did 10 pages, but I'm not really worried about that. It simply wasn't possible to do 20 quality pages in one week, and it was important that these be high quality pages, so I settled for 10 individual pages rather than 10 spreads. (Actually, 9 spreads and 2 singles, but you know what I mean.) For the most part, the pages are good. It has been a LONG time since I scrapbooked with actual photos. I didn't realize how long it had been until I sat down to do it. I was quite the addict in high school and college, but I quit cold turkey when I realized it was time to stop wasting money on things that weren't necessities. The products that you can buy now, to enhance your pages, are advanced FAAAR beyond what they were 6 years ago when I stopped scrapbooking. I have to prove to myself that I will be able to make money scrapbooking this time, rather than throw it away, before I invest in some of these tools, but I can tell you the first three things I am going to buy when I get money from/for this venture.
1. A circle cutter. There is probably a better name for it, but I know what I'm talking about, and at this time at night, going on this amount of sleep, I can hardly expect other people to understand what I am saying, so I won't bother trying to explain.
2. I am going to experiment with stamps.
3. Buttons and ribbon. Yes, I'm counting that as one thing.
Tomorrow night I am going to do some computer work for Pretty Bird after Bible study and Saturday I am going to finish as many ornaments as I can.
I have 2 goals for Sunday. (Why am I giving 2 sets of numbered lists in this post? I have no idea. Just go with it.)
1. To sell all of my pre-made books and give out 100 flyers and business cards.
2. To be in bed by 9:00.
Brett won't be happy about number 2. It's been hard on both of us this week, me being home every night instead of at his apartment. But he has been great. He came over for an hour last night and for 2 hours tonight. He doesn't really like hanging out here (just can't be comfortable) so he was a sport to come chill out with me.
I'm off to bed! Woohoo!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
The Office - Best Moment Ever
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.12.08
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.11.08
Silly Kim
Juggling
Monday, November 10, 2008
Simpsons Quote of the Day - 11.10.08
Saturday, November 8, 2008
So Excited!
We have had trouble finding a ring that Brett likes. There is a certain kind of gold that he prefers that, turns out, is almost impossible to find in major jewelry stores. Last night, Helzberg was having a guest vendor in their Irving store and we were invited to come meet with them because our jeweler at Helzberg thought that this vendor may be able to make custom rings. Well, she was right, but the rings were not at all what we were looking for. Brett walked over to the case of regular men's rings to show them what style he wanted and low and behold, there was a new ring in the case! It is Tungsten and it has a pattern with dark crosses in it. It is SO nice! Really unique and it was a great price. I am really happy that we found a ring that he likes. I love my ring so much, I want him to love his ring too! We ordered it last night and it should come in in a few weeks. Let's hope I don't lose it between then and the wedding!
I also found some super cute boxes to use for party favors! One of my Jennifers (3 of my closest friends are named Jennifer. They are all in the wedding. There is also a Jenina and a Jenna in the wedding. Try to keep that straight!) is getting married a month before I am and she told me about these cute little bride and groom favor boxes that she found at the Dollar Tree. I totally heart the Dollar Tree! It is far and away the best dollar store out there. They are little boxes that come in packages of 10 that fold into a little wedding dress and a little tuxedo. Jenn had all of the dresses she needed but was short on tuxedos so I told her I would check our Dollar Tree. I went there Thursday and oh my goodness! They were the cutest little boxes! And 10 for a dollar??? How do you beat that? They didn't have any tuxes, but I snagged all of the brides that they had. I was still 6 packages short though. So today I showed them to one of my other Jennifers and she told me that there is a Dollar Tree right next to the Hobby Lobby in Grapevine. My mom said that she needed to go to Hobby Lobby, so off we went!
We hit Hobby Lobby first. I have to admit, I am starting to spend a dangerous amount of time, and as a result of that, money, in that store! But there is no place like it! Crafting and home decor in the same place? It's like my own personal Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, minus the scary orange guys. My mom needed to look for a stocking and Jennifer had mentioned, when I told her my idea for centerpieces at the wedding, that the glassware at Hobby Lobby goes on sale for 50% off frequently. So while we were there we wanted to check it out, and HELLO! Jackpot! Today I bought 22 medium sized cylinder vases, 3 large cylinder vases, 18 silver serving pieces, and 33 bouquet and centerpiece floral pieces for $160. The only thing that wasn't half price were the serving pieces, but they were $1.87 a piece.
I am SO thankful that I was able to take Thursday and Friday off. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted because I was able to cross some very large items off of a very large list. Right now I am about to go work on one of my sample books for a few hours, then tonight I am going to do a little more ornament work, and then tomorrow afternoon I am going to finish what I can of what I didn't finish on Friday. This week will be all scrapbooks all the time! hehe... Brett is just thrilled.
I feel so blessed to have so many enjoyable things in my life right now, and such amazing people to share them with. =-)
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Now That's What I Call Productive!
I know what you're thinking. I said that my mom was going to make my dress. I'm feeling a little guilty about this. My mom was obliged to make the dress when I originally asked her to, but as we picked things out and she made the sample dress her enthusiasm grew. I just got paranoid. The first dress that she made for me to try on is a GORGEOUS dress! My mom is so talented. I truly believe that with enough time, there is nothing that my mom can't do. But unfortunately, when I put on the dress, it didn't look very good. It was gorgeous on the hanger and then I made it ugly! I think that if we made the dress in sturdier material, it would be more flattering, but what if it still didn't look good? Just the more I thought about it, the more I thought, "what if we spend 3 months and $300 making sample dresses that my stupid body made look bad and then suddenly it was 2 months until the wedding and I needed a dress?
So one of my bridesmaids, Jenn, who is also getting married, found her dress a few weeks ago at a boutique in Addison called Circle Park Bridal and she encouraged me to check it out. Let me just take a minute to say that my experience at this store was amazing. The women who own and run the store were so caring and so helpful and the dresses there were unbelievably priced. There was a nice mix of traditional and modern and I am so happy that we went there! So if anyone is ever in need, I highly recommend Circle Park Bridal in Addison. It will be worth your trip.
Back to my story. So Melanie and I made a list of places to check out today and Circle Park was at the top of our list. I'm so happy that we went there first! I liked the shop right away. As soon as you walk in, there is a really friendly vibe. However, I was not thrilled looking through the racks initially. Not because their dresses aren't amazing, but because I didn't think they would have anything that I could wear. Their sizes are limited. It is not like a David's Bridal where you see a dress and you can order it in any size that you want. This is a small boutique where what they have there, is what they have. You can alter anything. Like if you like a dress but it is 3 sizes too big, no problem. Their seamstress is apparently a Jedi, and she can make it work! Or if you find a dress you like and it is 2 sizes too small, no problem. Yoda will add a corset that looks like it was always there and voila, the dress is your size! But everyone says that you have to go up in sizes when you are looking at bridal gowns because they always run small. When I asked about sizes the woman told me that for the most part, they only go up to 16. Well I wish I were a 16! So I was sure that I wouldn't be able to fit into anything that they had. But we grabbed 3 dresses, one of which I realized WAS my size, so I thought that even if it runs small like everyone says they do, I might be able to get in it and partially zip it to get an idea if the style looks good on me. And can I just say, you can NOT judge a wedding dress by how it looks on the hanger! Especially if you are like me... a fairly simple gal. I like things clean and classic. Any embellishment on a dress that involves beading or intricate shmancies, I immediately think is not for me. Not because it's not pretty, I just don't feel like I can pull something like that off.
The first dress that I tried was one that I knew was too small. It didn't zip all the way, but we could tell that it was a good cut for me, so I said we should keep that cut in mind when we look other places. But I tried on dress #2 and oh goodness. This is the one that said on the tag that it was my size, which I thought in bride language, would make it at least a size too small. But when I put it on, it was actually a little big. We walked out to the 3 way mirror and I stood on the box and it was like time stopped for a minute. Not only was it a beautiful dress, I looked nice in it. The cut is very flattering and it flares out in all the right places. I thought it was lovely, but when I put on the veil, that sealed the deal. We will need to make some adjustments but after standing on the box for a good 10 minutes and the ladies assuring me that we will be able to add sleeves or a jacket and shorten the train, I decided to buy the dress. I'm SO happy that Melanie and I went together. She was so helpful and so encouraging. But best of all, after I had picked my dress, Melanie grabbed a few to try on, and guess what? SHE BOUGHT ONE TOO!
I am IN LOVE with Melanie's dress. On it's own, it is refreshingly unique and just stunningly beautiful, but on Melanie, it was breath taking. I have never seen a dress quiet like this. It is modern but at the same time there is something classic about it. It is WAY too big for Mel, but she has already scheduled an appointment with the miracle working seamstress to make sure that she will be able to take it in as much as she needs, and I am certain that she will feel like the most beautiful girl in the world on the day of her wedding.
It was so special to be able to go with Melanie and us find our dresses together. I love all of my sisters, and being able to live with Melanie this past year has reminded me how amazing she is. We both shed a few tears and we posed for some pictures, and it was just a really special day. I feel REALLY bad for hurting my mom's feelings. She is being nice and not trying to make me feel bad for buying a dress, but I know she is disappointed. If I weren't so heavy, this whole dress ordeal would be easier. But I think that I did the right thing. I think.
This blog is long enough already, but I have one more quick bit of news. I think that I found a bridesmaid dress! My boss told me about a couple of shops that she and her daughter went to when they were shopping for dresses for her daughter's wedding. They are very near our workplace and she said that they had good prices. Good prices??? This dress is $55!!! That's amazing! It is unique, it is pretty much the color I have been looking for, and it is a third of the price of the dresses at David's and Alfred's. Melanie and I both tried one on today to see how it looked on a body, and it is a flattering cut. It is maybe a tiny bit brighter than I would prefer, but it is a really pretty color that is going to look lovely in the park!
So I am feeling really good about getting some things done today. Those are two very large items to cross off of my list. I am so thankful that my boss let me take these two days off. Hopefully I will be just as productive tomorrow.
I'm off to make ornaments! Breaking Dawn is sitting on my bed, but I am going to have to insist on not reading anymore for a few days. If I pick it up tonight, I'm afraid I will stay up all night reading it and finish it tomorrow and waste my day! So there you go.
